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I was diagnosed with postnatal anxiety and depression in 2022. Looking back, I can understand how the challenges that I faced during the pandemic and during my pregnancy, birth and the year following had contributed to this diagnosis.

However, I realise with new insight that I've struggled with anxiety for a long, long time. It was just never noticed because I was a high achiever and coped externally by internalising my experiences. 

After having a baby, I recovered well physically, and medical professionals agreed I was managing well. But over time I struggled more and more with my mental health. Initially my challenges were explained by the transition to parenthood, however it did not improve.

It wasn't until almost a year later that I realised how poor my mental health was - I wasn't managing well at all, and I knew I needed to seek help.

Booking that first appointment at the GP was the most challenging part of the process for me. Although it was difficult, I am so grateful to my past self for taking that step. Psychology has been helpful for me, and I'm exploring the possibilities of neurodivergence and their impact on my experiences.

I didn't realise until I transitioned into parenthood how many coping mechanisms and strategies, I had been relying on my whole life to manage daily. I was and still am chronically stressed and exhausted. I'm still on a journey to figure out who I am, what is important to me and what support I need to thrive. But I'm learning how to advocate for myself and navigate life in my own way. Your experiences and needs are valid, and you have the power to navigate your mental health journey. I see you, friend, you truly aren't alone.